Counting Stars in the Silence

**Longing in the Quiet Places: A Personal Reflection on Michaela Anne’s “Stars” (2016)**
By Kroes den Bock

In the vast constellation of country music, it’s easy to miss the faint, quietly flickering stars beyond the brash glare of Nashville’s neon main street. I’ve spent years wandering the margins of these sonic landscapes, haunted by sorrow and searching for the honest, unvarnished songs that hold a mirror to the soul. Michaela Anne’s “Stars,” from her 2016 album *Bright Lights and the Fame*, is one such secret—an achingly vulnerable country ballad that remained stubbornly unknown, and yet can feel, at times, like it was written only for the most lost among us.

How does a song get under your skin? Is it the voice, tremulous and unassuming but resolute, hinting at pain but never lapsing into despair? Or is it that flicker of recognition when you hear a line and think, “Yes, that’s me—that’s exactly what I’ve tried to say, but never knew how”? For me, “Stars” is both: a quiet companion on the darkest nights, a hand squeezing yours when you’re convinced you’re alone in this world.

Let me tell you about my winter of 2017, when the days shrank and loneliness grew wild. There were mornings—many, in fact—when I’d wake on my unmade bed, surrounded by notebooks filled with frantic hopes and unsent letters, wondering if anyone remembered I was alive. There were days when I couldn’t bring myself to call friends, because the sound of my own voice rattled with weariness and shame. In that fog, I found Michaela Anne’s “Stars,” buried in a playlist shared by a stranger online. I heard the first gentle thrum of acoustic guitar, and a voice opening up over the darkened hills:

*“I look to the stars, and I wonder if you see them too
On some gravel road in the dead of night, wishing I was next to you.”*

So simple, so direct. Yet nestled in that lyric is a universe of longing—not just for someone lost, but for a better version of ourselves. Anne sings of a love left behind, but her grief is woven through with hope, like the faint shine that only becomes visible when everything else has gone dark.

**A Close Reading: The Pain of Distance**

It’s easier, sometimes, to catalogue the songs that did *not* save my life. I could list every chart-topping anthem that told me to shake off heartbreak or get back in the saddle on some metaphorical horse. None of them captured the desolation of watching someone drift out of reach—not just physically, but emotionally. “Stars” is different. Its chorus, soft and unhurried, embraces uncertainty and regret:

*“Can you see them, shining for you and me?
Or have you found another sky to dream beneath?
If you’re wishing for me, I’m wishing for you,
Counting stars till the night is all through.”*

I can’t hear it without thinking of all the faceless people who have passed through my life—friends I failed, lovers I disappointed, parents who tried but never understood. “Stars” lets me mourn what I lost, but it also gives me permission to believe that somewhere, someone is mourning for me. The yearning in Anne’s voice reminds us that what’s gone isn’t gone if we remember it, if we keep wishing on our own stars.

**The Sound of Vulnerability**

Michaela Anne isn’t a household name, and perhaps that’s why she sings with such humility—her music is an offering, not a performance. The arrangement on “Stars” is spare, almost skeletal: brushes on drums, a dusty pedal steel, a guitar line that tiptoes rather than struts. There is no pretense. Even the production sounds as though it was recorded from an empty, candlelit living room, where secrets still hang in the air.

This reminded me of nights when my world shrank to the size of my apartment, and all I was left with was the pale glow of my computer screen. There’s an overwhelming pressure to curate our lives for public consumption, to share joy and gloss over the days that bleed into one another. But “Stars” is a quiet rebellion. It insists on being heard in the small hours, when the truth hovers all around us, asking us to admit that we miss people we’ll never see again.

**What the Song Gave Me**

I have a tendency towards self-sabotage, an instinct to recoil from connection because I fear the inevitable disappointment. For years, I let friendships dissipate because I convinced myself that my brand of sadness was radioactive. In that endless spiral, I craved validation, yes, but more than that, I hungered for the knowledge that my loneliness was not unique—that other people, too, lay awake counting stars, wishing that distance could collapse in an instant.

Michaela Anne gave me that. Her song doesn’t solve anything, but it recognizes the ache. In one of the bridge’s most disarming lines, she sings:

*“Every dream I had for us
Hangs above me in the sky
But I’ll hold them in my heart
While you chase yours, while I chase mine.”*

Here, the song abandons the fantasy that everything will work out, that love conquers all. Instead, it embraces the reality that love often means letting go, resisting the urge to clutch too tightly at what we cannot hold. I heard those words and realized that my pain, though keen, was also dignified; loving from afar is still love, and wishing well for someone who left you can be an act of grace.

**Why “Stars” Matters**

Michaela Anne’s “Stars” will never fill arenas, and it will likely never be piped through supermarket speakers. Its magic is in its privacy. To those who find it, the song offers true country catharsis—a safe space to sit with grief, to cradle loss in your hands like a fragile sparrow, to accept that some wounds do not heal, but we can carry them with beauty.

If you are stumbling through yet another quiet night, if the weight of absence is heavier than you can bear, queue up “Stars.” Dim the lights. Sink back. Let yourself be seen in your brokenness. Let someone else’s voice remind you that the darkness is threaded with possibility, and the stars, for a moment, are shining just for you.

*Signed,
Kroes den Bock*

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